Hello friends! Sarah, here, returning to Nae’s blog to chat about the fact that I haven’t knit or crocheted or spun anything for about a year, now. Yep. I’m stuck. I don’t even want to. I’m not even tempted. I love petting pretty yarns and occasionally still buy yarn, and then I set it next to my crafting chair and admire it and then put it away—unwound, unstitched. I’ve got Crafter’s Block.
It reminds me a lot of writer’s block, minus the soul-crushing feeling. I miss it, but I don’t feel like I’m not ME anymore. I also don’t feel like I’ll never craft again, though I have started to wonder what on earth I’ll do with all this yarn if that should happen.
The thought of crafting still pleases me, and when I’m doing chores, I might fondly think, “I’d rather be knitting”—but then when the chores are done, and I settle in for the night… I don’t knit.
I do feel a bit guilty about it. It does feel like the WIPs are whispering accusations from their basket. Especially the long-ago promised gifts. I’ve tried forcing myself to pick up some work, and I’ll do a few stitches and then drop it, chasing the first available distraction. I’ve tried casting on the most beautiful thing in the most delightful yarn, hoping it will hold my interest, but no.
Part of it, I think, is burnout. It was my JOB for so long—and when I went freelance, I was stitching like a madwoman to the almighty deadline, and crafting felt an awful lot like desperation. Another part of it, I’m sure, is depression. My brain has been giving me a rough ride this past year, and the old “fun things aren’t fun anymore” game is afoot.
Maybe I’m just saving up my creative energy for a burst of yarny production the likes of which the world has never seen. I like to think that, when this fog lifts, I will cozy the world.
What I’m reading: The Shining Girls by Lauren Beukes, Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys. Also about 600 short stories submitted to the most recent call for my magazine. Meep.
What I’m writing: Finishing up the manuscript for my second novel, The Atropine Tree, and starting to dig in to the next book, which does not yet have a title. There will be big news, soon…
Sarah Read writes spooky things. She is the Editor-in-Chief of Pantheon Magazine, an active member of the Horror Writers Association, and a librarian. You can visit her site at www.inkwellmonster.wordpress.com or follow her on Twitter or Instagram @inkwellmonster.